so, it's 1:04 AM and I have been inspired. It has been so long since I've felt this degree of inspiration,feels AMAZING. I'll be putting it to good use shortly.I hope I can get to sleep tonight, been having ALOT of trouble with that recently. My level of anxiety is through the roof these days,enough to send me to the cardiologist. I need to quit smoking and reduce my stress level. duh.thanks doc. I feel really dizzy, my phone won't stop ringing,damn have to finish later. 

You stand so close,feel so near.
You are the center of my dreams, 
the essence of my hope and my fear.
The words i speak  unclear.
The feelings felt sincere.
Glance once, feel twice.
Struggle with my vice.
Dwell in your love and freedom is near.

So, yeah. I made a new journal. HERE IT IS!  A place to go crazy,so I can stop going crazy on you my dear
 :-)             

I feel like my head is full of that foam stuff you apply with a caulking gun....wish i knew what it was called and/or why my head feels like its filled with it. whatev.